Tuesday, January 30

The male Psyche?

You think like a man...
... you are like a man in a woman's body.

You give off a "ManEater" vibe... you will tame and domesticate him.

*faint

So how many times have I heard such things...
ALOT, seemingly.


WHY? ..Please someone explain to me!
  • I'm very much homophobic;
  • I definitely prefer men (confirm stamp chop guarantee!);
  • I definitely hope to settle down and have my own kids... someday (but thats another issue all together - Where is that man?)
  • Surely you can tell, Chinfee is biologically a woman
  • And I like all the stuff that girls like - fairy tales, lovey dovey happy ever afters (I am a Sucker for Romance) ,cosmetics, and being anal about how my nailpolish looks, yoga, dancing, fit and muscular looking blokes, intelligence, Dressing up, men that can take charge.. or yummy healthy looking male bods with delicious apparatus... ooohhh, laa laaaaa (Ooops, my specs seem to be a lil misted.... ok, too much detail for you... but you get the picture)
*Click here for Nude cutie pic story; & here for story on Butler boy pic




So what makes me so "man"?



Think about it this way - Man was made for woman, and Woman, for man. They are supposed to fit, nicely! No matter how one wants to put it (for eg Why men don't listen, and women can't read maps), eventually, Opposites still attract.


Thusly, If I did have a male psyche, am I supposed to be attracted to effeminate males?

like the handsome (?) Orlando Bloom.. So strong and powerful, quiet and manly..

-With long flowing blond hair-

Can't say for sure, if this pic is of a MAN, or of a manly blond bombshell, can ya?

Or Johnny Depp! As Captain Jack Sparrow!
um, or the weirder Willy Wonka..
Or, God Forbid... this.. disaster..

Guess who?
He can probably put on eyeshadow better than I can!




- see, if I ever went to church, and this was the case, I'd be praying... very feverently
OH GOD, PLEASE! NO!!!


Then again, at the rate I'm goin' .. with no REAL MAN in sight...
Maybe... I ought to think about it...


Current MSN Nick: j says: I think you should be a kept woman

Monday, January 29

Just helpin mikey!

Anyone who jams/ has a band, wanna do a survey thingy? Its not a sch survey.. he's out of school :)


Current MSN Nick: j says: I think you should be a kept woman

Thursday, January 25

陶喆 - 爱很简单

Love, is Simple

This song has enraptured many hearts..
For the sake of it, I'm just putting down the lyrics (yes... I googled it... As IF I can get the chinese characters right... Stop singgering already.)

爱很简单 - 陶[吉吉]

忘了是怎么开始 也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己 已深深爱上你 真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓 是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随 那个疯狂的人是我 喔~

I LOVE YOU 无法不爱著你 BABY 说你也爱我
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你

不可能更快乐 只要能在一起 做什么都可以
虽然 世界变个不停 用最真诚的心 让爱变的简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓 是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随 那个疯狂的人是我 喔~

I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里陪 一直在爱你
I LOVE YOU(yes I do) 永远都不放弃 这爱你的权利

如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No
请贴著我的心倾听
听我说著 爱你 (yes I do)
Not much of a mandarin (everything) fan, I would still consider this one of my all time favourite songs.. The emotions run high, it engulfs you, sometimes. (ok, me only then.)

This is an MTV based on a Korean Drama - Goong (i think- just quoting off the youtube intro).
There's a clear line of thought - the guy likes the girl *duh*.. But what intrigued me was, from the way the MV went through the storyline of the show.. how the girl was resistant.
...I wonder why




Well... This being a korean show, I would expect it to be typically because the girl has some GOOD reason as to why she's resistant to the guy... He must've been some bastard.
*innocent look*
Love is patient, love is kind [and] is not jealous;
love does not brag [and] is not arrogant
1 Corinthians 13:4

whatever the case, I still enjoy the complexities of such oddities.
Love.. isn't so simple, anymore.

Current MSN Nick: "We find ourselves in our own time". Sure; Just don't expect the world to wait for you... Life goes on, dude!

Wednesday, January 24

See la, Geh Kiang la

This Sucks.

Itchy fingers went to click stuff that went along the lines of "Upgrade Template" and got sucked into more than 5hours of tryin to get stuff back up again...

So you've noticed, I hope...
You Better! Bloody more than 5 hours when I could be ~z~SLEEPING~z~

Now there's this column on the side bar that shows my "Recent Comments"
And yet, there's NO COMMENTS Link...

WHYYYY?

Because Smarty HaloScan and smarty Blooogggeerrrr came up with nice quick installation packages... and I've probably tried it HUNDREDS of times, including checking the bloody SYNTAX!
- Hey, I'm I.T. Illiterate OK! -

We were unable to save your template

Please correct the error below, and submit your template again.
Your template could not be parsed as it is not well-formed. Please make sure all XML elements are closed properly.
XML error message: The element type "p" must be terminated by the matching end-tag "".
What the HELL!


Current MSN Nick: Scorpio - the Sex Addict *snigger* // * The Dance Floor * - " You BUTCHERED the Lindy Hop" *mumble // Narcoleptic, here.

*ps: in case you forgot, there's no comments 'enabled' currently.. so you can't post your good love, advice and condolences about .... this....

*pps @8am in the morning: I've reinstated the Tag-Board for now... :/

Monday, January 22

take my hat off to them

WONG FU PRODUCTIONS they call'em-selves

Wonder why I didn't come across them earlier!

So its one of those YouTube.com semi*-rampage days.. where I'm watching some videos, leading to other videos, leading to other videos.. and sharin'em with good ole' friends. And somehow pheli said to me "have you watched Yellow Fever? ...its very funny.."

Do check out their other stuff on their website (click on my post-title).
The second last video I saw was quite funny - Mark Leung's Unlucky Day.

Here's somethin by them, something a lil slower, to end the day with...



Current MSN Nick: * The Dance Floor * - " You BUTCHERED the Lindy Hop" *mumble

btw, for those who watched the first episode of The Dance Floor earlier in the night.. Yeah.. that quote (by Li Lin) is for us.
A lil apprehensive about all this TV thing, but what-to-do? Reality TV, need to be a lil thick-skinned.. So, even if it sucked (hell yeah, i know i kinda did. disappointed, thyself) So be it..

If you support us - Vote for us!

Viva


* semi-rampage: because, i wasn't watchin' youtube full out.. I still could hold multiple chats.. *roll eyes*

Saturday, January 20

my wretched heart

it feels so..

for all the things said and done
for all the things, true?


Current MSN Nick: my wretched heart // I got a WARNING for Drink Driving // just how low can you go to twist things to fit your reality?

~ VIVA ~





* The Dance Floor * Sunday 21 Janurary 2007, 8pm, Channel 5. - Watch out for us, VIVA!

Thursday, January 18

Restless

Can't seem to do anything proper.

so... came back online and hit the "STUMBLE!" button

52 PROVEN STRESS REDUCERS

1. Get up fifteen minutes earlier in the morning. The inevitable morning mishaps will be less stressful. & 2. Prepare for the morning the evening before. Set the breakfast table. Make lunches. Put out the clothes you plan to wear, etc. 3. Don't rely on your memory. Write down appointment times, when to pick up the laundry, when library books are due, etc. ("The palest ink is better than the most retentive memory."- Old Chinese Proverb)
- Trust me, Attempts are always made. Its a matter of pulling thru. And I only get to writing appointments...

7. Be prepared to wait. A paperback book can make a wait in a post office line almost pleasant.
- oh oh oh! I used to read EVERYWHERE I went, even when walking along the road, but now I hardly read at all. I got increasingly agitated everytime I had to stop reading, look up and focus on something else... like... crossing the road

8. Procrastination is stressful. Whatever you want to do tomorrow, do today; whatever you want to do today, do it now.
- this has got to be my mantra! Procrastination is prob what I do best.. apart from sleep

9. Plan ahead. Don't let the gas tank get below onequarter full, keep a well- stocked "emergency shelf'' of home staples, don't wait until you're down to your last bus token or postage stamp to buy more, etc.
- AKA COLLECT JUNK after a while

10. Don't put up with something that doesn't work right. If your alarm clock wallet, shoe laces, windshield wipers-whatever-are a constant aggravation, get them fixed or get new ones.
- keep up with this is more stressful! than letting them lie for a while...

11. Allow 15 minutes of extra time to get to appointments. Plan to arrive at an airport one hour before domestic departures.
- hey! my clock is set 15mins fast anyway! but time allowance when meeting others on a casual basis has proved to be more useless, coz I end up early, and they late. so.. might as well be late too!

13. Always set up contingency plans, "just in case." ("If for some reason either of us is delayed, here's what we'll do..." Or, "If we get split up in the shopping center, here's where we'll meet.")
- I think I do it pretty well... to the extent, people around me frustrate me! hey, don't blame me if I got good training from mum.

14. Relax your standards. The world will not end if the grass doesn't get mowed this weekend.
- errrrrrr... *shifty eyes* What did i mention up there?

17. Say "No!" Saying no to extra projects, social activities and invitations you know you don't have the time or energy for takes practice, self-respect and a belief that everyone, everyday, needs quiet time to relax and to be alone.
- NO! *DAMMIT*

18. Unplug your phone. Want to take a long bath, meditate, sleep or read without interruption? Drum up the courage to temporarily disconnect.
- you mean... computer?
(The possibility of there being a terrible emergency in the next hour or so is almost nil.)

19. Turn "needs" into preferences. Our basic physical needs translate into food, water, and keeping warm. Everything else is a preference. Don't get attached to preferences.
- ah, this is good shit. so... I should be flexible, eh? and eventually, I will have no opinion. I think this is good.............................

20. Simplify, simplify, simplify.
- sometimes, even after simplification, things still look as morbid as

22. Take many stretch breaks when you sit a lot.
-you can't take too many! :D:D:D:D:D

24. Get enough sleep. Set your alarm for bedtime.
- *snigger*

27. Write your thoughts and feelings down on paper. It can help you clarify and give you a renewed perspective.

28. Do this yoga exercise when you need to relax: Inhale through your nose to the count of eight. Pucker your lips and exhale slowly to the count of 16. Concentrate on the long sighing sound and feel the tension dissolve. Repeat 10 times.
- reaaaaaaaalllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy nooooooowwwwwwwwwwww

29. Visualize success before any experience you fear. Take time to go over every part of the event in your mind. Imagine how great you will look, and how well you will present yourself.
- this will also take you over the mountains of fear, into the realm of... overconfidence

30. If the stress of deadlines gets in the way of doing a job, use diversion. Take your mind off the task and you will focus better when you're on task.
- yippee, then lets go swimming at the beach!

31. Talk out your problems with a friend. It helps to relieve confusion.

33. Learn to live one day at a time.
- err...... I do that. its.. not that great either :/

34. Everyday, do something you really enjoy.
- SLEEP! means I can SLEEP MORE! All your troubles and your fears, dissipate. into the black hole.. (yeah, i seldom dream. If i do, then I feel i'm not getting good sleep)

35. Add an ounce of love to everything you do.
- pui. like how are you gonna quantify.

39. Looking good makes you feel better.
- i try, i try.

43. Change pace on weekends. If your week was slow, be active. If you felt nothing was accomplished during the week, do a weekend project.
- easier said than done. weekend projects can also stress one out!

44. "Worry about the pennies, and the dollars will take care of themselves." Pay attention to the details in front of you.
- orh, and be "penny wise, pound foolish"?

45. Do one thing at a time. When you are working on one thing, don't think about everything else you have to do.
- man! how many people can say they are able to do that 100%!!!! this is easier said than done!

46. Allow time every day for privacy, quiet and thinking.
- hahha, in the "meditative state", right before sleep

47. Do unpleasant tasks early and enjoy the rest of the day.
- . Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

50. Count to 1,000, not 10, before you say something that could make matters worse.
- yeah, ok. but i rather go with the "if there's nothing good to say, don't say it" - the claus is, unless you're already bursting your limits.

V.M.

know whats that?
its short for VOICEMAIL

Lemme pose a question: Those who have V.M, is it being utilised well?

you know why? because...everytime I call, and you don't pick up, and I have to listen to this lady saying "blah blahb lahb albhalbhahblahblahb - beep" but I hang up before 2 seconds of blahing is over, I still have to friggin pay 1min of talk time!

YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
WASTING MY $$$$MONEY$$$$

*twiddle thumbs*


Current MSN Nick: Pple who've affairs tend2become Narcissistic-live only4pleasure of e mo & instant gratification-focusin on excitment & satisfactn


just how low can you go to twist things to fit your reality?

Tuesday, January 16

"A woman who decides that she will never date a man who's attached (thats me, thou some fortune tellers I've met in my life might disagree...), and is determined not to cross that line (me, again), will probably never commit adultery (Hurray for that! I just hope its the same for my Future - none at present - partner). People who have affairs (tsk tsk, whether or not you're the one attached, or the 3rd party, eh?) tend to become narcissistic (sigh, why is it I feel that I know of such people..?). They only live for the pleasure of the moment and for instant gratification. They rationalise away the consequences and focus on their excitement and satisfaction.(You live your 'exciting' life, I live my HOPEFULLY Fulfilling relationship(s), we all stay friends :) - Perrrfect - . Just don't hit on me, or I'd be quite disgusted.)"
Dr John Van Epp
I read this a couple of days ago, and thought I'd post this up asap, lest I lose the magazine..
Herworld Jan2007: herworld feature - Party unfaithful

Good advice here: "Some people cheat because they are lousy characters - cheaters through and through. Others are good people who made bad choices, and put themselves on the slippery slope of adultery. ONce you figure out which one your man/ woman is, the decision - on whether to leave him or not - is an easier one to make."

Current MSN Nick: keyword: recoup // If you're happy & you know it, clap your hands - I'm not clapping.

Friday, January 12

something to smile about

this may not mean much coming from someone who can't dance, but you are a good dancer and even if it isn't from this show, i'm sure your talent will be spotted
a friend said this as his closing line to me, on msn, before he logged off. The ends of my lips curled upward a little.

Then I realised just how much I appreciate a certain handful of friends. When I'm in any down situation, I know exactly who would listen to my whining and bitching, and who knows exactly when to be gentle on me. (You would know who you are.. esp if I whine and bitch to you alot.. *chuckle)

These are the friends, I know not what I can do for them in return! (which can frustrate me, so I try not to think abt it too much.) Sometimes it may seem I take them for granted, but its not because I've forgotten.. its because I don't know just what is equal to all the love and support and friendship they have individually provided me out of the goodness of their hearts.

With as much love as I can possibly give (for now),
chin

Current MSN Nick: so.. was it me? or you? Jaded - frustrated, annoyed, irritated, stressed, pissed, blah.. I wanna cry, oso no energy to cry it out

Monday, January 8

I can bite.

I'm sure those who know me personally KNOW that I'm pretty easy-going with most things.

I quietly attempt to accomodate 'you' when I can, not not make too much fuss unless

1) in general, high on (any) stress = low on tolerance; or
2)
the opposite party is so full of one's self to and/or
3) consistant lack of sense, thought and overall compassion
4) and I especially (recently) despise forgetfulness for generic day-to-day-living things that is/has been/ has to be repeated week after week.

I would take it as a compliment to some extent, IF, in such cases, someone told me I am sarcastic :)

"There is nothing more beautiful than sarcasm. That is definitely an overstatement but it should balance the moronic comment which says that sarcasm is the lowest form of humor."

i'm so jealous!

click on the title link.

thats a new blog of Serene's.

"every morning he wakes up next to me, he holds me close, kisses me and tells me he loves me, is very lucky to have me in his life and that i'm beautiful."

So blissful.

Why all the stories of love and romance have to come in the same night?

I'm still happy for you guys/ girls.. etc etc.

Lotsaluv, anyway.
chin


Current MSN Nick: ah, so i hear romance is not dead yet.. I thought it was! // "i say NO to indecisive bed partners!!!"


I decided to try, when I didn't and shouldn't have.
Now, I'm tired of it entirely

Sunday, January 7

Hanoi




yeah yeah, i forgot.... to post... abt hanoi.



ok, i just was a lil busy (lazy)


I'm going to steal from my sis's posts.



we brought 2 cams - SLR and small digi - and being the lazy bum I am, thou its pretty fun to take pics, I refuse to carry bulky items ard with me unless absolutely necessary... this time, they carried the cams, and I just hijacked it sometimes...we got nice pics!



*blank*


not so, maybe just too many things to really pen down.


Current MSN Nick: * Tix to The Dancefloor - 11Jan, 7pm @mediacorp *
running out fast thou..

*my darling, owen*