oh, and i dont think, as you might have realised from the opening line, that the subject heading has anything to do with your current line of thoughts with regards to this entry... *looooserr*
That aside,
I still want to take up languages, but without the $$. Self-learning isnt much of an option. I am not presented with opportunities to practice even if I AM able to learn up to half-a-grade of the whatever-language with my oh-so-fantastic-stamina for self study.
See, i wanna learn german, french, spanish, thai, malay/indo, and of course GOOOOOD chinese, just to name a few.
You cant consider the current standards in SG Good, can you?
i.e.
- "hello, nihao ma?"
- "wo yao shuijiao"
- "eh, li ho bo?"
- "qu ni ma de!"
- "kaninabuchaocheebye"
what has the language disintergrated to?
You may argue that half of the examples there are not exactly Mandarin, BUT THEY STEM FROM THE SAME HISTORY, SAME LANGUAGE, SAME RULES.. So, yes, notice I used "chinese" and not "mandarin" :P
Even if i'm know, deep down, that I would be totally depressed with my progress (esp aft the 10yrs+++ of futile drilling by my school and often-very-useless-sans-a-couple-of-tuition teachers) I still would like to achieve a standard that would allow me to travel there and at least be able to say "i want to eat this, how much is it" in flowery chinese. After all, its one of the oldest and most eloquant language in the world, given if you know half of the 97632816exponential5538092873 characters that currently exist... *exasperated look*
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Oh well.. a very unfruitful day. Its warm. Its stuffy. I'm bored. At home. I've been eating my stomach to 3 months pregnancy term. OoOoOooOOoo, can see the lil knob thingy at the side of my tummy.. You think thats the baby's foot kicking and protruding? oh wait, i think thats a lump of undigested gardenia -so-good-you-can-even-eat-it-on-its-own bread that was too good, i swallowed it as a mushed up ball of wheat and yeast and whatever.
arhghg.. i cant dance! My calf is injured STILL. Since sunday, so make that a whooping 6 days. :( nvm, i'll make up with sheesha tonight. Wont get the car thou, too pissed off. mum, she only uses MONEY as her way to wield her children.. Bitchy mother.. {i wonder how come I lack in that department. But like i said, I am a poor student. *gaahahaha*}
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a special note:
[ to those who experienced a /ignore-like response on msn last night, sorry. it has everything to do with dear-mother-who-has-attitude-problems-like-a-14yr-old -read the 1st couple of paras.. *sighz*. In something VERY VERY CONDENSED:
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Sometimes, no matter how un-argumentative your natural disposition is, you can still get pissed off really bad. the final verdict is that I wont be doing any birthday celebration for this 21st - but whats new? I've never celebrated my birthday as its always been so low key, it doesnt feel birthday-ish. Admittedly, i was looking forward to throwing a lil party (like its your 21st *weak smile*), but since i dont feel any sincereity from dear-mother in wanting to have anything to do with this -- infact she talks as if its gonna be me thieving all her precious money from her to throw a party -- when family teachings advocate family happness and support..
tsk tsk tsk *bitter* - she snaps at me and says something like "So What do you Want to Do for your Birthday? You Better Tell me..Write a Proposal" - duh. I think: "this if your family? not your office? like how many times must we reiterate it to you that you (with my dad ard or not), as a mother, shd NOT bring your office politics and wanna-fight attitude home?!
oOOo, i can bitch quite well, but I'm not feeling any better and infact I'm rather hurt still.. like I want to steal her money and be spendthrift. and, its not the first, nor second.. but one of the umteenth time I've realised that my mother doesnt know me quite so well, and even though she jolly well shows very obviously by body language that shez a normal confused mother who sees her kid grow up but she missed a whole chunk of the growing up and thus is so fcuking lost, YET she refuses to admit that (talk abt being defiant and childish @14, no, wait, multiply that a couple of times)... and insists that "I AM YOUR MOTHER" - in this case, do mothers really know best?
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*sighz* - dont tell me "mothers are like that; give sometime.." blah and blah and blah.. i know all that talk. More often than not, I am the one dispensing those kinda words, ok. The whole issue starts from a Human Perspective, not a Family perspective. Its a very self-destructive personality trait that she has, that is more related to LIFE and all those ard her, than to just 1 of her daughters. so save the bull. it goes back way further into history that you would expect.
anyway, Skipped STATISTICS lecture. The poor sod of a lecturer - hez actually very nice.. just TOO NICE, even nice pple like me walk over him.. tsk tsk tsk.. Just pray that i pass my exam next may. :)
and oh, just wondering what happened to all the blogger post frills.. ie the font colours/ size and all that.. anyone know?
......... What I Dont Need Now.. is pple (read guys - notice not MEN -) offering to teach me mandarin for free... nothing is really free in this world right?
Current MSN Nick: Fuck 21 - [if you have anything to say, pls dont sound so stupid] skipping Statistics
